Since it's been over a month since I've updated I figure its about time.  (Although my life has been pretty boring so not much to say.)  Well...what have I been up to lately... I've been working 30 or more hours a week, which is awesome especially with the holidays and everthing.  I really need the money now b/c I had to take my dog to get neutered last week (his man-parts did not fall and I was afraid he was going to get cancer)  so that was almost $200 there.  It was a blow to my checkbook, but I will survive.  Tomorrow will be another large blow b/c my wrok is having associate appreciation day and I have a lot of dog food and rabbit supplies I need to get.  So I will probably be pretty broke until Friday, then  iget to do some shopping for X-Mas, woo-hoo.  I have only bought 1 of the 10-12 gifts I need to get so that sucks.  I have my mom's present picked out, but it's $50, so that will have to wait a bit.  I still need to get my sister, both my brothers and my dad's presents and I have no clue.  I hate not knowing what to get and how much I am going to spend.  BAHHH

On a interesting/exciting note, I logged on to my facebook account and the guy that I had/have a major crush on from high school "poked" me.  I am not sure what to think about all this, but I was very surprised.  He is going to school in Oklahoma right now, so that is probably yet another pointless crush.  Who knows, I might have a chance, right?  There was a client at my work a couple weeks ago that was really hot and was flirting with me, but then I saw his wedding ring and that was the end of that!!!  So this has been my super exciting update. 

Its been a while since I've updated.  I've had a pretty crap-tacular week.  Last week on Tuesday one our dogs died, then Wednesday my grandma fell and broke her hip.  Then yesterday they had to take my grandpa, who was in a nursing home, to the hospital b/c his temperature and his blood pressure were low.  I went to see him last night and he really wasn't there.  He slept the whole time I was there, it was hard to see him completely out of it.  Then this morning my cousin called and told us he had passed away.  So my week has turned from bad to worse.  I mean its not like we didn't expect him to die, but I kept thinking we had more time.  I wish I could have at least said goodbye, but ever since he had his stroke, 4 years ago, he never really understood what was going on. 

I guess I should be more upset about this, but I am not sure if its because it hasn't hit me or because in the back of my mind I was expecting it to happen.  This is my first grandparent to die, really the first person that I was somewhat close to.  I don't know how I should feel or what I should do, if anything.  Last night my dad kept asking me if I wsa okay with what was going on and I kept saying yes.  In my head I was thinking, "He is your dad so the question is are you okay."  When I finally asked him he sadi he was, but I am not sure.  I know that if and when I see my dad cry I will totoally loose it, but right now it is all very weird. 

Well for being my first post in a long time it was quite a crappy one.  I would say I am sorry for unloading all this, but really I am not.  This is the one place I can vent and really share my feelings, so thanks to anyone that cares about me enough to read this.    

Went to the casino last night, it was fun.  Laura gave me $10 to start me off and I did okay, didn't win any but didn't loose any.  I was up to $15.65, but decided to play the slots and lost it.  I did leave with my $10, and I was happy with that.  There were a bunch of us that went, both my brother's, my sister and her friend, Laura and two of my brother Paul's friends.  I wanted to get a dring, but the cheepest was $3 and I didn't feel like spending my money.  I have yet to go and buy alcohol, so last night was the first time I had to use my ID.  Now I just need to find some friends to party with and my birthday wish will be complete. 

I am hopeful for a trip to Manhattan, maybe in the somewhat near future.  I am currently the only bather at work, so it will be at least a month before I can.  But I have high hopes.  I am not sure if I will be able to come during the week or on a weekend, but I will be there sometime.  I know I keep saying that but never make it, but I am pretty sure I can make it this time.(I think, maybe, I don't know)

So...my birthday was Wednesday, I am finally the big 2-1.  I had a pretty crappy birthday, I had to get up at 7 so I could get ready for work early.  Went to renew my drivers liscense before work, in an effort to try and have a good picture. (which is stupid since there isn't such a thing as a good drivers liscense picture)  Anyways I ended up being late to work, but I didn't have any dogs so it didn't matter.  I worked until 4, was supposed to leave early but had a customer come in at 3 and I decided to wash her 2 dogs.  Went home thinking I could finally relax, but noooo.  I had to help my mom finish making dinner, then we finally got to eat.  Then lucky me I got to help do dishes-yay-that just made my day.  On top of everything else I only got one present, and it was from my brother Paul.  My parents did get me roses-20 red and 1 yellow, very pretty and they smell great.  But nothing else, I guess my mom wants to go shopping tomorrow, yipee. 

I am hoping that the weekend will be better, but it is not looking good.  I haven't even been able to celebrate my birthday, since I had class at 7 on Thursday I couldn't go out Wednesday night, not that I had anyone to go out with.  My brother is supposed to be taking me to the casino sometime, but don't know when and my sister was supposedly going to take me out this weekend, but it does not look like that will happen.  Who knows maybe she will surprise me.

On a better note I absolutely love my classes.  I really enjoy what I am doing, so hopefully I have found what I want to do with my life.  Also I really like my classmates, well most of them.  Some really get on my nerves and some are bearable.  There are maybe 3-4 that I really get along with and we joke all the time.  Its great being around new people. 

Finally to end this outrageously long entry, I miss my dear Manhattan friends.  Especially the ones that love me so much they leave random messages on my phone about absolutely nothing.  I wish I had more time and less days to work, I promise I will come and visit, I don't know when but I will be there some weekend.  It may take a little while but I will check my schedule and let you know as soon as I can be there. 

Oh and to Stephanie and Amanda- do you really know Paul, and if so how?  What had he said about that night, if he remembers anything?  And I take little or no responsibilty for my actions because it was my first night having jungle juice and jello shots... plus I was out with Dwayna and Becky and that alone would drive a sane person to do crazy things.

So I had a pretty crappy day today.  I wake up hearing my mom say "well I told them my daughters window was broken out and they need to come immediately so we can fill out a report."  So dumbass me I am thinking that one of the windows at my sisters new house got broken out.  But noooo, lucky me it was my car window.  And to add to this wonderful new my radio is gone.  The only upside to all of this is that my car was not stolen, again.  Yes thats right this has happened to me before, about 3 months after I got my car, and my brother had just installed the new radio he bought for my birthday, my car was stolen in broad daylight at my high school.  Needless to say I was pretty pissed this morning. To add to all this I had to be at work by 8.  Then once at work it was a non-stop day, people were calling off the hook, and I was very busy all day.  The one day I wish I could just rip someones face off if they say something that annoys me and I have to be busy.  All I have to say is BAHHHH.

Then, I realized that I have a $500 deductable for my insurance and I have a $200 insurance payment due this month.  Thats about $300 more than I can afford and I am not getting good hours at work.  So again I must say BAHHHH.  I can only hope that the fucking assholes that broke in my car get caught and thrown in a hole for the rest of their lives.  And if for some reason I find out who did this I will personally torture them!!!

Wow I can actually say I feel much, much better for venting all this crap.  Other than the crappy day I had today everything else in my life seems to be going great (thats probably why this happened, everything is going too good.)  I absolutely love my class, this week I was assigned to make cheesecake and linzer tart.  Both turned out great, and we sold out of everything by 5pm so I got out of class early. (I might have taken half a cheesecake, but damn i think i at least deserve that.)  Now I am very tired, my lack of sleep on wednesday and thursday night is catching up with me.  I hope everyone else is having a great life right now. (Also i think with the current money/car situation a trip to manhattan is out of the question.  Damn my life is beginning to suck even more!!!) 

One last thing... my birthday is in exactly 18 days.